Yesterday was E-M-O-T-I-O-N-A-L, to say the least. I said a proper 'it's not goodbye, it's just I'll see you later' too a group of friend's disappearing off to University and while it was a really lovely day, I can't help but get upset. As listed in one of my previous blogs, I'm actually really proud of them all for getting into Uni but something about yesterday made their plans seem so much more final.
We spent the day eating (it's one of my favourite past-times), watching really rubbish films, singing our hearts out to cringey songs and drinking (because, now we're all 18, we feel it's necessary to whip our IDs out at any given moment). It was just one of those days where no matter who you bump into or what you look like, you're determined to have a good day. And a good day was definitely had.
But right now, I'm a bit lost. The majority of my friend's are now scattered around the country, I'm applying for every single job that I find advertised (I may or may not be exaggerating here...) and this town, which once felt small and suffocating, now feels huge and lonely. So when I got home last night, I did what most 18 year old girl's do when they need a comforting word; I switched on my iPod, plugged in my headphones, shut my curtains and fell asleep listening to one heck of a playlist. I woke up with it still playing and for some reason, I felt like I needed to share it with you guys...so, here's my "I-miss-my-friends-and-I'm-an-emotional-drunk" playlist, hope you enjoy:
Flaws - Bastille. This song holds possibly my favourite lyrics right now "when all of your flaws and all my flaws are laid out one by one, the wonderful part of the mess that we've made is that we pick ourselves undone."
Stay - Hurts. I re-discovered this song whilst watching 'Made in Chelsea' and I haven't been able to shake it from my head. It's got the right amount of emotion and just the right balance of cheesy lyrics you can sing your heart out too.
Lego House - Ed Sheeran. Ok, I'll admit it. I fancy Ed Sheeran. I'm not even ashamed. For this reason alone, this song is now one of my favourites, because in my head, Ed is singing it to me.
Hiding My Heart Away - Adele. I know it's a cover, but every emotional playlist HAS to have some Adele in, right?
Making Pies - Patty Griffin. The lyrics are just explaining this woman's favourite memories and it felt quite fitting given yesterday, but although it's definitely an acquired taste, it's such a good song. It makes me want to pick apples and start rolling out pastry...I don't get that feeling often!
RE: Stacks - Bon Iver. Ah, Bon Iver is a God in my eyes, so it was necessary to have one of his songs playing last night. I don't know what it is about this song that I love but it's just so haunting.
Fast Car - Tracy Chapman. This song reminds me of my 18th birthday (I don't remember a lot from that night either...) because I can just see a handful of my best friends, my family and other close friends all singing along to this. One of my favourite memories.
I guess that's about it, my emotional playlist is over. I know it's only short but it was midnight when I made it and the alcohol induced hyperactivity was quickly turning into tiredness. What I'm left wondering though is if I'm the only person crazy enough to find playlists like the one above quite cathartic? Do you guys have a favourite song that makes you feel 100x better in seconds? Let me know, 'cause I'd love to know which songs do it for you and why.
I hope you have all wonderful weekends, xxx